May 05, 2022
Mall of Asia, Philippines

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“For everything you have missed, you gained something else, and for everything you gain, you lose something else” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

A grueling 2 1/2 hour commute going to Alabang on a Wednesday night made me contemplate of going back to Manila and live on my own.

When I came back to the Philippines in December 2020, I first stayed with my brother in Batangas. He is the only family I have in the Philippines since my parents and my youngest brother, Yves are all living their California dreams. My brothers and I are really close. Although, I also realized that L even though we’re close, has different priorities now, he’s already married and it’s not really the same like when we were kids. This realization caused wave of loneliness and for the first time in a long time, I felt really alone. It felt like somebody took my brother away from me even though he is near. Not anyone’s fault. Lewds is still my emergency contact person and I see him weekly with the dogs haha!

I decided to rent my own place near where I work where I can see the city lights at night. I am really happy with the move and the opportunities are endless! I like the fact that I can be so free! I am so excited for what’s to come. I have bought stuff and really looking forward with cooking again and decorating. I so love my place!

With the move, I also invited my brother, sis in law and friends to come over because I am really proud of it! I’ve also met my college bestfriend, Mia after 5 years since she got married. We went to TGI Fridays – our favorite restaurant and we talked how massages are so good now once we turned 30, UAAP (basketball in college), her single vs married life, alcohol and men haha. I missed hanging out with her.

I realized that being single used to mean that nobody wanted you. Now it means comfort, freedom, endless adventures, travel, fun and enormous options and you’re pretty sexy. It also means you’re taking your time deciding how you want your life to be and who you want to spend it with. But of course, it comes with a sacrifice.

It maybe hard to walk in a single woman’s shoes sometimes that’s why I really need special ones every now and then to make the walk a little more fun. 😉


Maria, sometimes Niskie